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Am breaking all the rules with today’s thoughts, and….

In reading the paper, watching news programs, and listening to my friends, it seems there are some things we are supposed to hold inside from now until into the New Year. Actually, the advice is to get into a crowd or busy place….you know, get with the spirit of the season, take the mind off oneself and things should ‘clear up’ or ‘ease up.’ Or we are asked to compare our problems with the less fortunate and that should ‘help’. We are being asked to rationalize away our feelings. Good grief!

On the other hand, obviously by another ‘wise’ crowd (so many wise people, and look at the world! Sigh..), we are told to ‘be here now’…’be in the present’…..there’s a whole publishing niche that dwells on the theme of NOW.

Wouldn’t NOW be like experiencing where one is, right NOW? If I am sad, how can I be ‘sad/not sad’? If I am concerned, how can I be otherwise, except to pretend or suppress something?

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Well, almost there…or almost past it all! I’m probably like some others….have gotten gifts for those I love and have struggled most with those I needed to impress.

The cards are sent, no turning back…I said what I said and now I must live the words…..or more truthfully, I’ll act like I am doing so.

I notice I selected the card designs like they were really a cover of me, who I think I must represent to them. I hope I’ve concealed who and what I really am thinking…..and it isn’t about them. It is usually about me…if they are impressed with the card, maybe that’ll hold them for a while, until I think of my next move!

As I re-assemble the year, deep inside I feel like I’ve cheated others by portraying something other than the real me….so I feel like I’ve cheated myself as well.

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